There has been ONE THING that has been my struggle and my want. A want for understanding, a want to be… what it truly is to be pure and holy. I don’t even know if I can fully explain it.
To be pure and holy before Him is something that is a want and a struggle. A struggle because I often find myself alone in this, and very often hard to do. It’s a battle of the heart and mind to grasp and embrace in a society where almost anything goes. Reality shows where nudity is the constant, gossiping and backstabbing is rewarded. Being married at first meet.
Sexuality is often questioned and debated. Family is being redefined by society and the world. So being a person who desires the Word, to be a Berean, has been very difficult even among other Christians, because even among other Christians there is a search for romantic relationships.
Where am I going with this? This week 3 of the bible study with Kelly Minter has been truly illuminating because I sensed Him revealing and bringing illumination to much that I have been struggling with…
Day 4, Kelly writes about being a Child of God and the differences from 1 John 3.3-10, about being a believer without sin. Sin, the one thing that has become abhorrent to me. The one thing that would separate me from Him, and yet it’s prevalent in many forms and ways.
We all struggle with a secret sin or two. Something that we would probably go to our grave wanting to hide, and yet we know that there is no hiding anything from Him.
But when you have a heart that cries out for Him and to be constantly in His Presence, purity and holiness becomes something you utterly want to be even though you know He loves you completely no matter what.
So in my finite mind, I struggle and I read this from the entry..
“A life of righteousness, free of the dominant power of sin, is directly, inextricably connected to our relationship with God. We come to this text and try to figure out how much sin is too much sin. Then we try to fix things in our own flesh. But our not sinning is not about how much harder we try. It’s about our relationship with our Father and His Son.
When we consider His lavish love, His Word planted in our heart by the Father, we will begin to rely on the power of Jesus to destroy the Devil’s work. When we fall back on Jesus to take away our sins–all of them– realizing that we are not just someone the Lord tolerates, someone He let slip in, but that Jesus actually chose us, the maybe we will realize what John is saying really is possible: We can be free of sin.”pg. 89 Kelly Minter, ‘What Love is’
This literally rends me to pieces. Every time.
Kari Jobe’s One Desire has been the reverberating piece that echoed through me today as I have studied His Word that reflects this entry. I could say more but I don’t have it in me to do so…
1 John 3:3-10 English Standard Version (ESV)
3 And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.
4 Everyone who makes a practice of sinning also practices lawlessness; sin is lawlessness. 5 You know that he appeared in order to take away sins, and in him there is no sin. 6 No one who abides in him keeps on sinning; no one who keeps on sinning has either seen him or known him. 7 Little children, let no one deceive you. Whoever practices righteousness is righteous, as he is righteous. 8 Whoever makes a practice of sinning is of the devil, for the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil. 9 No one born of God makes a practice of sinning, for God’s seed abides in him, and he cannot keep on sinning because he has been born of God. 10 By this it is evident who are the children of God, and who are the children of the devil: whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is the one who does not love his brother.